Freeze the moment

Because it never gets any fucking better

Home Sweet Home

You turn it all upside down
You and your inky arms, you and your daily explosions
I used to think that home was here with you
I used to think a lot

Since when did life get like this?

June (maybe July)

'When you leave i repeat this moment again and again. I listen to the sounds of it changing, becoming smaller and quieter until there is nothing of it left.'

Re-heated spaghetti
Another book abandoned part way through

Another night of bedroom silence

Swallows me completely

And i think i might drown in these pajamas
I think i might be swept out to sea


Twisted legs and twisted heads,
High tide and i am stranded.

Water envelops my body.

Slowly breathing and slowly swallowing.

I am sinking.
I am drowning.
I am theirs for the taking.

Some friends are meant to be.

Lying in bed looking up.... always up.
11.30 pm
If i stare at the light for long enough it might happen.

I'm waiting.

4am

and i am wondering if you too, are listening to the same siren drone on and on through the night into nothingness

i wish i could sleep more consistently
i wish i could stop thinking

i want to roll into a ball and open up into Spring.

New Years Resolution

- Teach myself to play the piano

And it was there, lying in his arms that i remembered,
I started talking about you, just like i knew i would,
and it was there, lying in his arms i remembered i have lost much more.

I put my head to the pillow and i listened for my heart,
distant and muffled but there,
If i concentrate on that sound i might forget,
forget that you ever lay there/here,
forget that you ever meant anything more.

I'll Be There

It's ok.
The world is going to end in 2012, someone once told me a lecture, meaning its concrete truth.

Maybe you should...

Get some rest

Love a little more on your family

Dismantle and reassemble the parts that dont fit right

Speak a little softer

Think about a big move

Eat more protein

Learn to hurt a little less

Persevere with the curling tongs

Walk a little further

Think about people less

Talk a little more

Try to eat 5 a day

Be prepared for heart break

Draw always

Remember that everything is going to be okay